We took a couple of pics on a bus stop once we came back to the city. (Our intention was to take pics at the mall but with all the people, no thanks.)
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What a bright future.
I know I am not getting in to the business school next fall... no matter how hard I try. That because I just read that there were almost a thousand applicants this year. (I tried to get in to Tampere two years ago, and failed. This time my second choice wasn't Vaasa but Turku, so I won't be getting in anywhere.) What the hell am I supposed to do without a job or a place to study? I have no fucking idea.
But so much for the angst now. The situation will not change no matter how much I think it over... All I can do is hope that everything's going to turn out okay. (In other words, that the situation will improve without me putting any efford into it.)
Anyway, I'm going to do a little shopping with my sister today in the new mall which was opened last Friday. Yeah, I am on terms with my sister again. In the end it was me who had to put an end to the conflict. But whatever, I couldn't have afforded losing a friend since I really don't have that many. Well, I'm going to look for a nice, preferably pink, dress for the graduation. :) Something simple, though, so that I can have it in everyday use. Might also look for some cheap movies / cd's. And I'm taking my camera so we might take some pictures, too.
I tried to send an enquirement to the Turku airport this morning but as I had written the email, I deleted it. Today's not my day! The reason I didn't send it is that I don't feel too good about myself right now. I wouldn't care if I wasn't taken there, it's just that I fear I am too lazy and will continue being a lazy ass loser who would rather stay home than work.
Shit, shit, shit. It will be really awkward to go to work tomorrow! But I'll get over it, even though I will be a little nervous. But I could have been sick for real, how would they know that I wasn't. And whatever, who the fuck cares. I just wish this internship period was over already.
All of a sudden I feel so confused and lost. I haven't heard from any of the places I sent applications to, which in a way is no surprise, but it does suck! I do need a fucking job, although I would rather just do nothing and get the money. But no, I have no job. I have no idea what I will do comes summer. Hopefully we will be able to go to Miami to visit dad. I need a break. I always do. I wish I had lots of money. Or a fucking job.
I hate today. Actually the reason I didn't go to the museum was because I couldn't fall asleep before 5 am and I was just too fucking tired to get up this morning. I'm still tired because after coming online to write the fucking email, I couldn't fall asleep anymore. "/ I went for an hour's walk, and I think I am going again soon. There's nothing to do, I am bored. (And I need to lose some weight, I feel like a fattie.)
Blah, and I thought everything was okay. Sometimes I wonder why I am always trying to make my life so hard...
- Current Music:Forgotten Tomb
Anyway, when the (really exciting and fresh looking) catalog came about a week ago, I immediately went through it, and marked down the things I plan on buying... Some things I really desire, others are just an interest. Now today I wanted to get the 16 GB USB memory stick (20 euros) but once I went looking for them at around 11.30 am they were already sold out! "/ My sister had planned on getting one too (we went together on my lunch break), so needless to say, we were both a little disappointed. I ended up only buying leopard printed leggins and some candy & coke. But tomorrow! Tomorrow is the day. Because the OrigoMini light - by Eero Aarnio comes in sale. I have dreamed about a Double Bubble -light but the Origo is lovely too, so I'll start with it. And I'll definitely be at the door tomorrow morning at 8, and I will get my light!!! If for some reason there would be none, or they would be sold out.... I would kill someone and go straight back home.
It's beautiful, isn't it? :)
- Current Location:Piikkiö
I am now seriously considering changing my internship place... not that the museum wouldn't be an interesting working environment, it's just that I am not learning! And I want to learn... I need as much actual work expertice as possible if I ever want to get a fucking job. And I do want to! Today I sent in yet another application, an online application that is. I applied to be a reseptionist either at the spa in Naantali or in Ruissalo. But like I never heard from the two other places I sent applications to a month ago, I am not really expecting to hear from these places either. But anyway, back to the internship matter... I'm planning on calling the Turku airport tomorrow to enquire whether they would take an intern, and if so, in what position. If it doesn't work out, I'll try to come up with some other places... I am not too interested in doing my training in a hotel again, though. But what else is there?
Seven more weeks to go and I will graduate. Great, because I've been waiting to get out of school for a long long time already. But! Sucks, because I don't know what next! I don't want to move back home and just do nothing. "/ Damnit.
- Current Music:Martin H Emes (@ MySpace)
I've been on the computer basically all day today. Sounds somewhat boring, I know... but it hasn't been too much so since I have been enjoying Photoshop... It's funny how you can pass hours on end with that program. If only I had my own computer here...! This is slow, hasn't got my media library, and I cannot really download anything. "/ I want to go look for a laptop soon.
Here's a little something.
- Current Music:Turmion Kätilöt
I'm not going out this weekend, so I downloaded Photoshop Elements on this computer and I'm going to bursh up my PS skills a little. :) I'm also going to do my German exam plus some exercises... Haha, in the end, I needed not to go to Tampere to do that, which is nice. Although I am going ti Tampere next weekend anyway. If my sister comes along, we are probably going out somewhere. If not, then I'll probably have another alcohol free weekend.
- Current Music:Above & Beyond
- Current Mood:excited
Although being an intern isn't very demanding, at least in fields of no expertise, working daily is quite exhausting. I'm always pretty tired when I come home, even if I haven't gone to the gym... like today. I also remember being tired during my internship at the hotel last spring. It was nice to be on-the-go almost daily, though, because that way one doesn't have time to worry about little things. (Like not having a life.) I do wish I had a weekend job, although it would consume my last energy supplies, but at least I would be earning some money and, what's more, my weekends would be busy. (With something else than shopping / going to clubs.) However, there aren't many openings.
I was working with my CV last night... which, since I haven't really done many, was basically just copying someone else's from the net, and changing all the info. :D I'm thinking of applying to Finavia (airports, that is) and Sokos hotels. Well, actually I am not just thinking, I will eventually do it. I just hate applying because I have a hard time praising myself... I never know what to say about myself, my interests, and such in order to make me look good. (Well, hire-able.)
Now if only I could choose the schools I want to apply to & the fields I want to study! (Let's hope I'll get a job, though.)
- Current Music:Metsatöll
This has been a lazy day anyway... Last night I was out with my sister and her boyfriend. Well, we spent most of the night at their place but yeah, we had a good time and since we, or at least I, didn't drink much, today was good, too. I watched The Hills marathon on MTV... which is somewhat weird since I always thought that show was pretty boring. However, after a couple of episodes I couldn't switch the channel anymore. (Although I guess I could have, had there been something good on.) Anyway, I want to go for a walk but I feel fucking lazy so we'll see about that. I'm going to the gym tomorrow with my sister, though.
Well, another week at the museum awaits me and I just hope it will be nice and interesting! :)
- Current Music:silence